“Be more dedicated to making solid achievements than in the running after swift but synthetic happiness.”
– A.P.J.Abdul Kalam (an aerospace scientist and former President of India)
I stare mindlessly at my computer screen. Once again, I realize it’s not easy to write; sometimes it’s fun, but on many occasions, I wonder what to scribble. I go blank. I am frustrated, but I write.
My challenge is to visit my desk and pick up my pen and paper or type on my desktop. On some days it’s merely two sentences, other days, its two thousand words.
But I don’t worry about that anymore now – I push my fingers on the keyboard.
Realizations don’t always flow smoothly when I write. Often I look at the fig tree outside my window, and then back at the hastily scribbled piece. Today it was a drag, and I had to remind myself of Edison’s famous words, “Genius is one percent inspiration and ninety-nine percent perspiration.”
It’s hard work!
What’s the standard of our living?
If you enjoy everything every day, you are God. For ordinary mortals, life is tough and painful.
Therefore let’s not make ‘happiness’ or ‘enjoy’ the criterion of our living. Let’s check our habits and unconscious patterns- what do we do nonchalantly? What is our behavior during stressful times?
When you are down, if you spontaneously go for a nature walk, or chant Holy Names of God or pick up your yoga mat, or write journals, it’s a matter of celebration. But if it’s alcohol or drugs that give you a sense of shelter when you feel insipid, then it could be a cause of worry.
What you do is more important than what you feel. Feelings come and go, but a purpose drives you silently forward in your sojourn in this world.
When I write, like today, I am connected and contributing the best I can. Effective living is determined by congruence to our true selves. However, when I began journaling today, I was blank and tired. But I decided to nevertheless write, as an obligation. Some days I jot illegibly, and at other times, I love my journal. I now realize both are phases, and I need to keep going; my vision to contribute through writing, is more important.
To be continued…