The joys and pains of ‘I’
The ‘I’ is a painful state of existence if we focus on what the ‘I’ lacks or what it wants. But if we choose to remember the gifts ‘I’ has received, we’d likely transform our existence to that of quiet grace.
When we meditate on our inadequacies ‘I’ seems a burden but if there is a constant ‘Thank You’ and appreciation, then even in solitude you feel rich association. Otherwise, you could live with a hundred other spiritually fired-up men and still feel lonely.
The default setting for many is ‘I’ lacks many things. ‘I need something to feel something else’ is the norm. When I sit to chant my daily prayers I can catch my mind racing to, ‘I need to finish my chants to feel happy.’ This is vicious because when I do ‘finish’ my prayers I then want to do something else and when I am in the middle of that, I want to ‘finish’ that as well. As a result, I can’t give my best in the present.
Only when we offer our gratitude and joy in the ‘now,’ do we begin to enjoy the ‘I’ state of existence. This is what the ancients called the ‘Brahman’ realization – the oneness of our consciousness with the Supreme Consciousness.
And it’s easy to attain- just be present, that’s all. Don’t let your goals and targets suck out the joy from the present. American talk show host and philanthropist Oprah Winfrey said it well, “Doing the best at this moment put you in the best place for the next moment.”
Athletes are trained not to compete with others but their own selves. A sprinting champion improves upon her own timing and attains new frontiers. A spiritual athlete does it little differently. He excels with awareness of his present situation and accepts the now. ‘In this situation what’s the best I can offer?’ is his/her question and the attempt to answer that is happiness tapped.
Therefore it’s time we take it one day at a time and let’s change the definition of best, for good! As Ruiz says, “Do not try to do better than your best. Pushing yourself too hard can cause pain, injury, and mistakes. More subtle still is the recognition that our “best” will vary from moment to moment, that, in a sense, you are always doing your best. Realize this, and your inner Judge can take a permanent vacation.”